Safe Flight !

What do you expect when you say "safe flight" to somebody ? Nice landing ? Safe trip ? Arrived safely ? Well, for me it depends on where do you think the person is going. In normal circumstances, when you see your friend is leaving for vacation - working - travelling.. You convey this message to show your wish for the person's safety while going to the destination. You wish everything is going to be fine and hoping to see a smile drawn on that person's face so that you actually have that warm feeling that everything is going to be fine. That you will get another chance to see that person. One day. Somewhere. Someday. Today, I'm sending off one of my teacher that I know him by heart. Well not literally "sending him off" like dropping him by the airport. But more like sending him prayers for all the best things on him and may lucks along his way afterwards. I wasn't being a very nice student. Often challenging his lectures and ended up getting to know more and learn more. I learned many things from him. Not only about my knowledge in working, how to go through life, and how to smile. I think the best thing he taught me is how to smile. Life is not as perfect and beautiful as you hope and you expect to, but smile is the only way to go through it. No matter how hard, no matter how sad, no matter how do you feel about it, the show must go on. Indeed, the show must go on. Shit happens. You go down and doomed. It happens. That's life. You had enough. You fed up. You don't know where to hide. But you have people around you who look up on you. I still need to learn many things but I know he'll always be there. So, I hope and I'm sure that you go to a better place and we'll meet again at better moment. Safe flight, Boss. To those nice beaches and sunshine. To wherever you go. And whatever is waiting for you there. À bientôt, Monsieur.

Silent Conversation

Do you ever feel like talking to the night ? I mean, like looking at the view outside the car at night and feels like your mind is going somewhere else, having a conversation with the night sky which is having a sweet company named the lights. Your body stays still but your mind is going round and round, occupied by thoughts you had during the daylight. You feel so tired that your brain is actually numb but you need to get your brain busy of things. You have this feeling when you don't feel like talking to somebody or someone, that you just need to make a conversation. To something that doesn't respond to you at all. But something that makes you react honestly. Until out of the blue you start making these scenarios in your head, take 1.. Take 2.. Take 3.. Few or more scenarios of "what if"s. You re-play related scenes of your memories in your head. Things you might or might not be doing. Things you could only imagine to happen but it didn't and it wouldn't in any case. Then the lights suddenly become blurry and looks so vague that you are actually realise that you're just stuck in a moment. You imagine things you could've done better but you didn't do it anyway. You imagine of what life would be but you didn't put yourself all out that you missed the chance. You got scared of the consequences. Or things you got trapped of and you tried so hard to figure it out but you couldn't find yourself at the right place, right time or right door. You heard this gentle voice that is talking to you, pulling your off your very own conversation that actually happen in your head only and you see this marker at the side of the road saying "something big is coming". You close your eyes and slowly inhaling and exhaling.. You gotta continue the show and watch how it becomes. Your time has not come yet. You need to get yourself together. See things with your heart. If only you have something left in your heart now. This is what you call a silent conversation. As it was made not to solve anything, but to give you some rest trying to get rid of boundaries and its burden. When you're having that conversation, the night will only listen and the lights will keep you company. A sweet company.

The Intersection

I always think that the airport is an intersection. People come and go, have different destinations, have different goals, have different adventures or stories to make, waiting for their arrival. People in the airports have expectations, either those who are waiting to pick up or send away somebody or even those who are going to leave or arrive to their destinations. They may set their expectations earlier or even right after they step their feet in the airport. Well sometimes you don't really aware of what's waiting for you in your destination.. It feels nostalgic whenever I see someone who looks daydreaming in the airport. I always have those days where I imagine what kind of adventure that is waiting for me, either for working or having a vacation. I will meet many people from different backgrounds, different places, different values, different point of view, different way of living. It feels magic to me when I can imagine those thoughts of what kind of stories I will make with that person, how are we going to meet, people I may not think will be a friend of mine or even becoming "my people". Don't you think that life is such a gift with soooo many gift wraps to cover it up? Sometimes you need to figure out what is your actual gift. You got a box, you tried to open it, but all you could find is gift wraps by gift wraps. Until you got tired et voila ! Suddenly you have opened the last gift wrap and found your gift. Ps: a gift is not always something that you like :) You went through stories, you met amazing people, you made memories, then you found out the moral of the stories. Thing you need to remember, it's not always easy to figure it out as sometimes you don't even have any idea of what is the moral of the story until you spent years of searching, wondering, and juggling in the same place. It is not always easy to go through, to figure it out, and to accept the gift. I need to pull myself together as well when I thought it's a dead end. I sometimes forget that what I need to do is to figure out another route to get out from the labyrinth. So, the real question here is actually not what is your destination. But who do you pick to accompany you to get to that destination. Because you need the right person to enjoy the ride ;) Good luck, Sifa

An Appreciation for Memories

Being in love is when all songs and lyrics are dedicated to a person. Well, it sounds cheesy but I bet you're smiling when you try to think about it. And when you're trying to think about it, please remember that being in love doesn't mean all the beautiful and flowery things only. Being in love, is more than that. Being in love is when you're amazingly made as happy as you could. You become so greedy of the attention and spoiled of being loved. Being in love is when you're miserably made as sad as you could. You become the most unwanted and ridiculous person alive. The deeper your feeling is, the more you got attached and affected by every little details of changes your counterpart is going through. I used to be in your shoes. Confused of how people can be addicted by that kind of trap as if you can't let yourself free and got stuck into a situation that is out of your control. I used to use my logic more. Such as; why don't you try to control your feelings before you go deeper? why don't you hold yourself from something you can't bear of? why don't you step ahead by yourself and suit yourself as you don't really need any burden to live your life? I used to think a lot. And as I grow up, I think a lot some more :) - which means I'm using my brain quite often. Love is a magic that is able to make you hate the person you love the most and love the person you hate the most. You can't use your logic for love, because only love knows how two-becomes-one. Only love knows how your gloomy day can be brighten up only by a smile from your loved one. Only love knows how your heart can be broken by one or two words from your special one. I tried to squeeze my small brain to see what's beyond the magic and what I can come up with is "love is memories". No matter how much you're in love but when you remember of how your loved one betrayed you, you grow hatred little by little. In the contrary, no matter how much you're mad with your loved one but when you're reminded by how lovely and gentle that person used to be, you start making up excuses just to forgive. Don't get me wrong. I am not trying to show you how good or lucky my life is. I fell in love and hurt in the same time now. Yes I am mad and feel betrayed but that doesn't mean I hate him. I do forgive him, but doesn't mean that I want to let him go sincerely. The true nature of a person who is in love is selfish ! You possess that person so much that you want him/her just for yourself. You're busy thinking of how your life would be with your loved one and how that love one would be when he/she is with you one day. When you're in love, you're busy thinking small little details of how that person will react to anything you do. Truthfully I was enjoying myself being selfish and pampered until I woke up and realize that the time is up. When your loved one wants to grow up and the possibility of you become the hindrance is there. I was mad, of course. I was in denial. I was torn into somebody that I don't even know or proud of. I threw the blame on him. I was scared of losing myself and by nature, I ran into God. I wanted to pray for how beautiful my life will be and how to cope this brokenhearted. And love showed its magic one more time. When I prayed and closed my eyes, all I could think about is how happy I was when I see him smiling. How relieved I was whenever I know that he's doing fine. How grateful I was of him, that I didn't want to ask for anyone any better. I ended up praying of him to be fine, safe, and remain happy. Even though we worship different God, but he taught me of how God wants me to be closer to Him when I was going through something hard. He taught me how nice being loved is. He taught me to be honest and accept your own flaws. I was happy being perfectly imperfect together. I would never know how to fight my love one if it wasn't him showing me on how to always come back and fight for your love one. At the end, I don't want to be an ex who talks big that I will get over him or mad at him and don't want to hurt my pride some more. Start telling bad stories while I know that won't change anything. That, for sure, will only bring me going under and feel so small. The fact that I love him no matter how hard it was, it is, and it will is the one that keeps me going, is not something that I need to be ashamed of. I have to be proud of how I grow up and respect who umade me what I am today. Love is memories. Its warm is irreplaceable. Its kindness is unforgettable. Its tenderness is valuable. When you love someone, you love him/her with all your heart so whenever he/she left, it will leave a spot in your heart which forever granted to that person. Sometimes when you feel like missing the spot, you can come visit and feel its warm so you can continue your life. Regards, SP

Its Complexity

Human minds are complex. I read these words today and somehow it's embedded in my head. Haunting me around as it got me stunned by its meaning. Well, you don't need rocket science to get its meaning. Human minds are complex is a self explanatory. I read a story about a heroine who were juggling around and struggled a lot just to prove how useful she is. However, the more she tried to be, it always came to be she is the one to be saved. But she is indeed a heroine. She doesn't have any super power. She struggles a lot to find what she's good at. She found difficulties to acknowledge her own abilities, because what she's looking at is the ability people look up to. Not her own abilities. At the end, after she found how vulnerable and weakling she is, she eventually stood up to be a heroine by admitting her true colours. Yes, after long debate and tired of denial, she stood up. She faced herself. She pull herself together. She took control of herself so then she could be the heroine of her own. Guess what ? Her only ability is to love. She loves her people. She sincerely tries to protect her loved ones. She didn't take them for granted. She didn't turn her back when her loved ones hurt her. She trust them and she gives them all. No matter how cruel and how bad her loved ones tried to get rid of her, she would come back and fought for them. She didn't let her loved ones go through the battles by themselves even though she couldn't be their shield or the saviour of all. She only has her love which became the power of all. Sounds cliche ? Think of it. When you feel like loving makes you more human and weak.. But at the same time the solid your feelings are, the stronger you become. You have a reason to fight. You have something to protect. Human minds are complex. You need to get rid of your own ego just to see yourself crystal clear. When you caught up by your own ego, your own desires, you start to have these feelings; love, anger, jealousy, hatred, and so on. You forget what's important. You turn down your loved ones. You want everything more and more until you get tired and fed up of yourself and you don't even know what exactly do you want. Come to think of it, I too don't have the level of maturity to act as the heroine in my real life. I follow my desires. I don't get rid of my own ego. I'm eager to be a heroine people look up to. The bigger I want myself to be, the smaller I become. The only thing left in myself now which more likely the same as the heroine; I too have people I want to protect. I too have people who become my reason. I want to be strong. To keep my head up and walking side by side with people I look up to. I want to be my kind of heroine. Bear with me. Until its time. Human minds and its complexity; is a gift.

you had me at hello

"People change, feelings change. it doesn't mean the love once shared wasn't true and real. it simply just means that sometimes when people grow, they grow apart"

a quote taken from a movie.

one of my favorite movie, which shows that the expectation doesn't always go along with reality. true.

i'm having all this crap floating on my mind, crawling & is about to burst.love matters? nope. too melancholic & vague. i'd like to call it "feelings".

something that happens to you when you wake up in the morning & find out that you were never be sure with somebody you're with. you failed to spell the words, you just know.

or you just realize it when somebody asking you, "is it still there?" & you couldn't give the answer.

and so on.


well, truth is, we will never be sure with somebody/anybody.

because we never be 100% sure of ourselves.

you know that somebody had you at hello & the next thing you met him/her, you don't even have any reason to hold them into your life. trying to keep them away. make a shortcut to end this beautiful live story you ever proud of. out of the blue.

or you have somebody, had you at hello & the next thing you met him/her, you don't even have any reason to hold them into your life. but you just like to keep them there no matter happen. though feelings change, you still need them to complete your life.

feelings are fragile. trust, prejudice, pride, all stored into memories, that you turn over and over again just to remind yourself that you are still able to retrieve the feelings felt in that time.

memories that keep you alive.
as a reminder that feelings are so vague, fragile, & forgotten.

but once feelings change, lies are something that you got.
while you give it a shot for honesty, you only get it worse.

how do we keep these feelings to feel the same thing & felt as same way you had it the very first time?

truth, we don't.

we may be able to remind how it feels or how did it come to you. but no one could avoid it when it comes to fade.

what you are capable of is, to feel different feelings to the same person in each day, each time, whenever & wherever.

regards.

Imaginary World

What are we?


Living a world, that would never be true. we are hoping that we are living the right thing in a right way with a right reason.
spoiled people could easily moaning & crawling some help just to get their problems done. to get things done.

which there'd never be.

nothing will be done.

it's just like a snowball, rolling from a little thing which gets smooth & apparently it's getting bigger & you think that you couldn't handle it.

Live is a snowball. you create it. you imagine how big will it be & how perfect the form will be. where will it be rolling, through which way will it reach the end & end up like a burst.

if you mind being a picky in a selfish world, please don't mind to be a little bit bitter due to there'd never be an end for everything.

-because an end is a new beginning of something else-

don't cost your life at stake, cause it is already at stake whenever you decide to wake up & live your life.

please don't say that you are living a hard life, like people around you are living their life easier, because no one life is easier than the others. & asking to switch your life & their life, will be a futile idea.


they just decide how to handle it. how to face it. how to overcome.
you would never be able to live someone's life & so do he/she.
you've been great with yours, anyway.

the one who matters problems will end up in a hard life, as he/she might wanted it to be.

see here, sometimes, people-do-ask-a-hard-life.

if you don't believe this, pls take a mirror & see yourself, how would it be if you do the other things for your life.
will it be that harder? or much easier?

you are saying that you are living a hard life - well, it sounds like you wish that whatever you are living now to be considered as a hard time for everyone.

pls don't blame life since you are the one who matters it.

why would you be afraid of what you're going to do?

we'll die anyway-sooner or later.

whenever will it be, you'd still be astonished.

world would never be true. it is just an imaginary thing created by people's.no fairy tale ever happened, & it'd be a waste to go ask for the real thing.

while you are one of the creator of the unreal world.

i'm not asking somebody to start asking his/her life after all.

i'm only wondering, why should u bother to matter the world while you are one of the preposition?

the moment you are asking yourself, you will ask what you had left & passed.

-while you don't have anything at all-

you born naked & fragile. you'd be back to be naked & more fragile at the end of the day.

yes, at the end of the day. you were one of the creators.

If You Stop to Step

What happen if you stop to step?
What happen if you stop to try?
What happen if you stop believing?
and so on.

such some cliche questions.

but those questions will remain the same if you start to think about "stopping".

Usually people start to think to stop when they meet the obstacles, when they thought they couldn't bear the feeling of failure, undesirable or unexpectable results. People will be chickened out when they feel insecure. And for sure, the feeling of failure is the best place to feel insecure.

But if they really look into the root, they will find out that the actual wick of the insecure feeling is started by themselves.

Yes, you are by yourself is the one who decides whether you could bear the challenge or not.
You are the one who asks yourself to "stop" while you're trying & choose to let people to see how pathetic you are.
Worst, you are the one who hurt yourself for not letting yourself to prove that you could face the matters - which stands right in front of you.

Dealing the reality.
Reality bites-for sure-but it won't bite you if you know exactly how friendly reality is.
yes, reality is your teacher, your friends, your parents, whoever or whatever you want it to be. And as a teacher, friends -real friends, parents, they won't let you be blunt or blind.
You need to see, hear, & act, by your own words.

You live in the world & surrounded by people you believe, not to tell you what to do, but to tell you what they want you to do just because they want you to tell them what exactly you want to do.

And if you want to feel jealous to someone else, please pick up yourself first. Because you will see somebody who actually has so many talents but to shy to show it up or the reverse, to cocky to let people know how capable you are of something.

Win or lose, is only a word. But if you "stop to step", it means the world.
Nothing is constant, but the fact that life goes on & you will always need to step, whatever happened yesterday, or will happen today & tomorrow.

So later on if you want to stop, just remember:
"you will stop dealing with yourself".


regards.

guys,i'm pregnant

Guys,I'm pregnant.
There's something in my tummy writhing like it's going to scream.
It contains of pain of my conscience.
Such a convict in a cold tummy.

Guys,I'm pregnant.
I don't know which doctor or what kind of specialist shall I meet to overcome this little buddy inside my tummy.
And the best part is this little buddy is starting to influence my brain.I feel numb and my body is stiff,rigid like a dead body. Am I going to be a zombie soon enough ?

Guys,I'm pregnant.
All I can do know is starting to think about my little buddy's future.where will it be,when will it be,&whom to show its coming.

Guys,I'm surely do - pregnant !
So would you please stop telling me,"john,get real,man.you don't do pregnancy".

in the matter of fact.
I DO.
YOU DO.
WE DO.
EVERYONE DOES.

I have my own conscience as my fetus. It could be a big baby who is screaming aloud & sometimes the more we held its voice..the easier we get to vomit.
So guys, me;you;and everybody..we do pregnancy. We do keep our 'babies' alive up until we reach the limit to keep it stop to hide itself. We do pregnancy with the idea,conscience,work,etc..as the babies.

So,when will you giving a birth?


Regards.

what's yet to come

Friends.

As you might say,is the name of people who get along when your family not. Know you better than any of your spouses will. Accept you than any of your boyfriends\girlfriends do.

They just do, for no specific reason, found you with all sort of your lacks.

They're our reflection of what we do, our closest picture of what we are, and our dirty little secret of what we had :) They're just something that keep us.

In fact, however mesmerizingly they touch your life, doesn't mean that they will stay forever next to you. There are times when they weren't there when you need them the most. There are times when they weren't be on your side and choose wherever you did, and there are times when they were just being nice&stay as long as they can, but at the end of the day, your path will cross :)

Anger, sadness, betrayal you name it until farewell are things that may be unbearable in friendship. Some things just matter when it comes to people you love.


People may change, feelings may gone, but memories that you made are golden. It stays forever and will haunt you down if you are willing to deny it.


And the truth will reveal its seal.


Wherever you go, your path will cross again and again and again. Someday, somewhere, in a perfect moment that you might foreseen about what's yet to come.



Even if it's not, try to remember:
The end of something, is always the beginning of the other things :)


Best regards.

come and go

people come and go.

if someone's coming then someday they might be gone, by default.

by divorce, resign, escape, broke up, death, and so on.
people have too many reasons to go, same as they have it to come.
we are destined to be a part and apart in one simply story-of life.

why don't God just let us to be a part for the rest of our life?

simply, only because God wants to show us of how much they're worth for us.

then again, i spent my 1st of january in condolence.
for the others, 1st of january used to be some new beginnings of a new life, bla bla bla..
as mine, "the end of someone that means something for me"-for these recent 2 years.

the thing is, it doesn't really matter about how people come and go.
the one that matters, is what happened after they're gone.
what's left?
good things..bad things..or something that hasn't done yet.

life is a series of an unpredictable event, and an unexplainable, as well.

so i sat in front of a house which a friend of mine was sleeping and wouldn't ever gonna wake up.
i saw people around me were chattering one to another and felt pity on the family.

then i recalled as much as i could at the moment of people i've met and what happened after they're gone.

people may come and go.
but how we want to be remembered, depends on our decision during our lifetime.

"life is like a book, when the story ends, there'll be another book to be published, then might be some popular books to be a best seller--but only a 'good book' that will win the pulitzer"

so, how do you want to be remembered?

going the distance

the title above as the same as one of the new film which played by Drew Barrymore and Justin Long.

it tells us about a story between two people in a long distance relationship (LDR).

recently, i just moved into a new work place and found out that i'm surrounded by many people in a long distance relationship. this is a common case, actually, but when you're into a relationship (serious one) or marriage, it becomes something different and full of commitment.

many people have a successful LDR and many don't.
otherwise, many people don't do LDR.

hesitation brings you to the unfaithful relationship.
while temptation is everywhere, people.

you might be gone to a city and have a 'life' there, which contains with some new friends to hang out, new troubles that drown you and keep you busy with yourself, new things you might like, until new 'temptation'-s you might meet.

and so on.

believe me, people changes and they might seek for something better than 'now'.
whether it fits with their requirements or maybe it suits with something in their mind.

never judge those people, because you might be in the same place like them.

but here's the thing:

"distance is only a way to make people apart to realise that they're a part"

dilema

Ada satu saat dimana kita berhenti bertanya 'kenapa'.karena memang tidak semua pertanyaan 'kenapa' memiliki jawaban.dan tidak semua 'kenapa' berarti kita mempertanyakan alasan.karena kalau kita terus menuntut akan adanya alasan,kita akan terhenyak sendiri saat kemudian kita ada di satu posisi dimana 'kenapa' hanyalah sebuah bagian dari kalimat retoris.dimana kita sendiri terus berpikir keras mencari jawaban dari kenapa,hingga akhirnya pertanyaan itu kembali pada diri kita sendiri.

"kenapa kita terus mencari jawaban dari 'kenapa'?"
"kenapa kita terus mencari alasan dari 'kenapa'?"
"kenapa kita lari dari kenyataan bahwa tidak semua 'kenapa' ada jawabannya?"

Saya nggak tahu dengan orang lain,tapi saya sudah memiliki satu hari dengan penuh pertanyaan 'kenapa' yang seolah meledak bersamaan.bertumpuk dan kemudian meledak di kepala saya di hari yang sama.dan itu adalah satu hari yang sempurna.dimana ketika seharian saya mati-matian mencari jawaban dari semua 'kenapa' dan berakhir dengan kembalinya pertanyaan itu pada diri saya sendiri.

Hari dimana saya percaya bahwa belum waktunya seseorang pergi karena sakitnya dan akan datangnya seseorang yang justru sampai detik ini terus membuat saya bertanya 'kenapa' dia tidak ada justru disaat saya berharap dia ada.dan kemudian semua kepercayaan itu pun lenyap,seiring dengan berlalunya hari.meski hari saya berhenti di hari itu.di saat saya menunggu dan terus menunggu hingga saya lelah menunggu dan berhenti bertanya 'kenapa' dan melupakan makna dari 'percaya' itu sendiri.

Hingga akhirnya kita menyadari bahwa sesungguhnya bukan karena 'kenapa' tidak memiliki alasan,tapi memang bukan kita sendiri yang berwenang menjawab 'kenapa' itu sendiri.yang tertinggal pada diri kita,hanyalah 'kenapa' kita tak menyadari bahwa kadang kita sudah kehabisan alasan untuk menjawab 'kenapa'.we did the best we could but it just doesn't work at all.


and what's left?
-memories.

things you call fate

this is my fate..
this is your fate..
this is our fate..
fate fate fate
many people talk about fate,like they already knew about their own fate.
but what is fate,anyway?

"kalo jodoh,nggak kemana"
saya sering denger tentang kalimat ini.bahkan saya sendiri sering mengucapkannya.ini kalimat yang cukup ampuh bikin orangjadi lebih tenang dan pasrah.tapi kadang tetep aja kocak kalo mikirin kata2 ini.kalo jodoh,emang nggak kemana.masalahnya darimana kita tahu itu jodoh kita.

"emang udah takdirnya kali,ya"
ini biasanya dilontarin sama orang yang uda super pasrah.baik yang udah berusaha semaksimal mungkin,atau yang udah nggak tahu mau ngelakuin apa lagi buat wujudin apa yang dia mau atau bahkan justru yg 'menurut dia sendiri' bahwa dia sudah berusaha semaksimalnya.enteng kita bilang memang sudah takdirnya.padahal kalo dipikir-pikir,darimana kita tahu kalo itu bener2 takdir kita?

and so on..

tapi bukan berarti kita bisa menyalahkan segala sesuatunya pada takdir kan?kalo kata agama saya,takdir memang ada dua.yang bisa diubah dan yang sudah tertulis.takdir yang bisa diubah itu adalah takdir yang bisa berubah jika kita mau berusaha mengubahnya.sementara yang sudah tertulis adalah kebalikannya.takdir yang meskipun kita jungkir balik berusaha untuk mengubahnya.namun tetap saja tidak berubah.kematian misalnya.

kita semua pasti mati.nggak tahu ya kalau yang ikut aliran sesat dan susah mati.intinya sih mereka juga mati nantinya.saya takut mati.tapi saya mau mati.kematian membuat saya menghargai kehidupan saya.menghargai waktu yang terlewat.menghargai setiap kejadian,kenangan,dan cerita dalam kehidupan saya.kita mahluk hidup terlalu mendambakan kehidupan hingga kita lupa memuja kematian.kita lupa bahwa karena adanya kematian lah kita jadi mendambakan kehidupan.kematian membuat kita menghargai kehidupan dengan keterbatasannya akan waktu.singkatnya,kematian membuat kita menghargai setiap waktu yang kita lewati.

kematian itu pasti.itu takdir kita yang sudah tertulis dan tidak bisa kita ubah.yang bisa kita lakukan hanyalah 'maukah kita memberi kematian kita arti'.berhubung sekarang lagi musimnya bunuh diri,membuat saya jadi sedikit merenung.kenapa ya orang2 itu menghentikan hidupnya dan memaksa kematian secepatnya mendatangi mereka.apa mereka sudah yakin kematian mereka akan berarti?

semua yang terjadi adalah rahasia Tuhan.termasuk takdir.terlepas dari takdir itu ada yang bisa diubah ataupun tidak,yang bisa kita lakukan kan hanya berusaha dan berdoa.dan membiarkan setiap kesempatan dalam hidup lewat,hanya akan membuat kematian kita tidak akan berarti nantinya.jadi ya terus saja berlari,mengejar segalanya.garis 'finish' kan pasti ada.tapi kita yang menentukan bagaimana cara kita mencapai garis finish itu.


so don't say it's over if it's not.